It’s a dangerous thing to walk closely with the God of the Universe. You just never know what He’s going to ask of you next!
God has been teaching me a lot about trusting Him, lately. That’s actually my “One Word” for 2013… Trust.
The crazy thing is, you think you can just give God this area or that one of your life, and you’ll be all good. But, no. He then asks you for those parts that you didn’t want to hand over… the ones you don’t think you’re ready to let go of, yet.
He isn’t demanding. He just quietly holds out His hand, and says, “Please? Will you let Me have that?” And, I know that to give it to Him will release me… it will bring freedom and huge blessings. Every one of the people in the Bible who trusted God experienced these HUGE blessings for doing so! Just check out Hebrews chapter 11! But, it’s one of the hardest things in the world to do… to let go.
Just this past week, God has asked me to trust Him with one of the biggest fears in my life. It’s had me under its sway for about 11 years now. And, I thought I’d gotten past the worst of it — until last night, when I fell apart because of it, again.
But, it’s not just this thing, this fear. In the last week, God has asked me to trust Him with three (3) other huge things in my life… ones that I really didn’t want to give over. I realized, though, that I can give them to Him. I know He’ll take care of them. But, this last one — this fear? This is hard… maybe harder than all of the other three combined. 😦
The problem is, I can say I trust God, and that I know He’s trustworthy. I can say that I’m getting to know His character well enough (through my Bible reading, study, and our personal chats). But He will almost always ask me to prove it. I can’t just say it with my lips — I have to live it with my life. As writers often quote, “Show, don’t tell.”
So, it looks like I may have to hold His hand super-tightly, and face my biggest fear. I’ve got a little time to prepare, but I have a feeling He’s not going to let this go. I’m going to have to take a huge leap of faith, and believe that God is who He says He is, and He can do what He says He can do. I have to believe the things He’s promised me, and just go. It’s not going to be easy — at ALL! But, I know — yes, I know — it will be totally worth it.
“…close my eyes, and leap!”